april

april (that's my sister-in-law, folks) is in the hospital. she's fine. well....mostly... long and short of it is that she's mostly alright but they may induce labor tomorrow or some other soonish time. high blood pressure and such things.

i called her (she was very surprised to hear from england via her dinky hosiptal phone) and she said she was alright. the doctors don't seem to be worried about the baby (rachel). so they will do some more tests tomorrow and either induce labor or send her back on home. she's got an IV in her hand...and she doesn't like it one bit. poor thing. i tried to remember about how long it takes for it to calm down and stop feeling...well like there is a small metal rod jammed in your vein because there is...and couldn't rememeber. so i just told her it would stop bothering her in a few hours.

all in all doctors aren't worried, she's not worried, so i'm not (eh...too) worried. mostly i just feel bad she's stuck in there.

why we're on this subject my grandmother is out of the hospital. and doing well and glad to be home where she can email people again. she loves email. she's got WebTV so she didn't actually have to deal with buying a computer or learning how to use one. just an email program hooked up to her telly.

me? the cloud of my paper has begun to descend over me and the reality of if this isn't fantastic i will get kicked out of my program. so i'm nervous and weepy and other such things that don't become me. on one hand i wish my lung hadn't collapsed here when i was in the middle of my MA in britain. but on the other hand, since i've decided i don't want to do this anymore anyway, it's better it happened in the middle of this disgree than the next one. which i hope to actually make a living off of...eh...somehow.

but that sort of logic isn't really helping. and i'm still just bemoaning my inability to make up the points i lost when sick. feeling like i should be better and more intelligent than this. annoyed when i realize i'm not. i really was hopeful for awhile. *sigh* i'm sure i'll feel better when i turn it in and can't fiddle with it anymore.

expecting a package from my mom soon. that should cheer me up a bit. also expecting one from jesse's mom within the next week. which should be good as well. she always puts the most random things in there.