food

ah, so this is the states...and this is my computer....yes....sorry i've been so absent.

i am packing and job hunting (via the internet) and i'm tired of trying to invent interesting things about that to tell people and will leave you with knowing neither is much fun. though...i did find a cassett tape of my brother singing christmas songs to me for the annual car trip to georgia to keep me from screaming. he was about nine or ten i was about one or two. cute, really cute.

got on the scale when i got back. i've dropped down to 110 pounds. which is irritating. when i am stressed i don't eat (i don't really think about it) when i am really stressed i don't eat (more or less on purpose because that's just what i do and i'm learning to deal with it). and i did just finish my thesis...anyway...i was about 125 when i left for england. and i need to put on at least 5 pounds 10 would be better. it would help if i was hungry enough to do this or wanted to look 10 pounds heavier. i like the way i look at 110 but know it just isn't healthy. i don't really like talking about this but i need to get beyond that and not be afraid of saying that this is just something i will deal with and i will get through it (one bagel loaded with strawberry cream cheese at a time) and the next time i get stressed i will deal with it again and it will get better and it has gotten better from the way i was in high school. so...

i hate confessions.

anyway. miss you all. but i'm a hell of a lot closer now. =)

*kisses*
-sarah